Struggles

Well, call me lazy, but even though I've been setting my alarm clock for 5am to wake up and do Insanity, I'm not being motivated enough to actually get up and workout. I just go to sleep so late {working on design stuff to catch up} and sometimes it's 2am before I get into bed. 5am seems like the only comfortable time to workout because the boys aren't awake yet and it's cool outside. I have been trying get a workout in while they are awake, but the baby makes it especially difficult due to him not liking to be in one spot for an extended amount of time. So, while I may have started a workout every day, I haven't gotten through one in the past week! So, I'm definitely not doing very well {in my opinion}.

I feel really bad because I should be motivated because not only do I want to look awesome and fit for my hubby in September when he comes home, I am going to Las Vegas in August and I have my best friend's wedding in October! I just wish these things could be motivation enough for me to be like, "Ok I'm going to bed!" at 9pm and then have myself easily up by 5am. But, the thought of my long work order list getting even more crazy than it already is cringes me, and my motivation to get things done on my list is clearly my strongest motivator right now. I want to only be working on my graphic design part-time, but with how many projects I have, and people needing them fairly quickly, I feel like I just need to work in every ounce of free time that I have. It's definitely struggling me.

On a good note, I think due to eating healthier this week, foods jammed packed with power foods such as black beans, sweet potatoes, avocado, lots of veggies and more vegetarian options, including almond milk, I have lost another pound! 203 makes me the lightest I've been since having Tanner<3 Only 3 more pounds and I'll be out of these miserable 200s!! 3 seems to be such a light number - I feel like I could workout for a day and loose that! Time to get re-situated and get motivated again. Encouragement is well... encouraged! Thanks everyone!

2 Weeks Off = BLEH

Do you ever take a break from working out and then you feel like COMPLETELY guilty and then just like, yucky!? Well, that's the way I felt after taking a two week break to fly out to San Antonio to see my hubby. Believe me, the yucky feeling was totally worth it to be able to see his face again!! I totally planned on working out while I was away too, but it just never happened. Oh well I guess!! I was also eating out at basically every meal, so I was just like, bleh.... but I came home, weighed myself, and actually LOST a pound after being completely sure that I had gained weight on the trip.

But, this morning 5am, I got back at it and started the Insanity program over. I lost track of where I was in it, and I just needed to regroup and get back to it, so I just started with a fresh start! It was great to know that I already accomplished something good by 5:45 in the morning! Now, I feel pumped, like I want to go take the boys for a nice long walk and get all of my pending work done! That's another thing, I have TONS of work that I left unfinished before leaving for Texas. Now, I need to get back to everything and get everything done so no one is waiting around too much longer! Today is all about focus and regrouping, and getting back into the groove!


Oh, I did not reach my goal of being under 200 to see my husband, but I DID get into Miss Me Jeans, and that was basically the same excitement. Last time I tried on the largest size they offer, they only got up to my thighs, this time they pulled all the way up, and buttoned with no issues! So, I bought them.

My next goal? Being at least 190 or under by the time I go see my husband again, maybe beginning of July... can I do it?? I'm sure going to try!